Jesus Calling, April 2nd
I have promised to meet all your needs according to My glorious riches. Your deepest, most constant need is for My Peace. I have planted Peace in the garden of your heart, where I live; but there are weeds growing there too: pride, worry, selfishness, unbelief. I am the Gardener, and I am working to rid your heart of those weeds. I do My work in various ways. When you sit quietly with Me, I shine the Light of My Presence directly into your heart. In this heavenly Light, Peace grows abundantly and weeds shrivel up. I also send trials into your life. When you trust Me in the midst of trouble, Peace flourishes and weeds die away. Thank Me for troublesome situations: the Peace they can produce far outweighs the trials you endure.
I honestly don't know if anyone else can relate to this, because I know we all deal with things differently, but I want you to know, that I know this doesn't have to be our life. We have to let go of the fear, of the stuff that we can't control, of all the "what ifs" because it is stealing our joy... so today my prayer that I am repeating over and over is this:
Lord, thank you for coming here to save me from myself... thank you for being the most perfect dad. Thank you for loving me. Please help to let go. Loosen my grip, unpry my fingers from the rope and take it. Fill me with your Presence because I want to experience Your Peace.
Pride almost kept me from putting this on my blog today. Someone is going to read this and be surprised to know that I struggle so much. Ironically, I am the leader of this bible study. Ha! But you know what, in order for me to have freedom, I can't live behind a mask. God has done some really amazing things in my life, and I am much closer to Him than I was 5 years ago, but it is a journey. As long as I am here, he must have some more work to do in me... so if that's is the case, then I am just going to be honest about it. Hopefully I will be able to tell you by the end of this study that I am living in freedom of Fear... and it will all be because of HIM... because it definitely isn't ME.