Watching the video on Sunday in my living room, I was crying like a baby listening to what His love for us looks like. He is ALWAYS patient with me, He HOPES in me, HE DELIGHTS in me, He is not jealous of me but for a relationship with me, HE is always KIND and COMPASSIONATE. When you feel like your are disposable in another's life, He tells you that you are never disposable to Him, He fights for you. Beth describes in her study that just because we always don't feel like God loves us... it is not a belief... We must choose to know that God loves us and just take Him at His Word because HE SAYS SO! I love that she says, " No one has ever done more to show you that you were unloved that God has done to show you that you are loved." Only God possesses unfailing love. We can love God because he first loved us. He is love... it is who He is... He can't be any different. She gave us a questionaire that I am still pondering over and I can't get it out of my head. She tells you to ask yourself the following questions...
1. Does God regulary circulate into my thougths?
2. Am I drawn to spend time with Him?
3. Does my life demonstrate a love for God? Does my life reflect God's love for me?
4. Do I often enjoy God?
5. Do I ultimately find relief or satisfaction in obedience?
Beth Moore states from commentary, " To love God in the way defined by the great commandment is to seek God for his own sake, to have pleasure in him and to strive impulsively after him."
That is what I want! Instead of striving for others to love me, accept me for who I am, and find worth in me... I want to strive to love Him the way he loves me.I want to strive to know Him, to believe His words. I want my life to reflect Him so much that people have to go through God to find me. I really do want to love the way Jesus loved.
Yesterday, in the car, I was talking to my son. I asked Sawyer, " Why do you love God Sawyer?". My five year old did not skip a beat. He told me, " Mom, I love him because He loves me. He made me and I want to be a good boy for Him." The wisdom of a child. We get to love Him because He first loved us. Anytime you have a thought of love, it is because God put it there. When you look to God and tell him that you love him, instead say, " I love you too" because just the thought of you loving him means that He just told you.
" God, thank you for filling me with your Presence. Please help me to love you the way you love me. Help me to love others the way your Son loved. Help me with the unbelief that I sometimes struggle with. Thank you for loving me... I love you too."